(A TO Z BLOG CHALLENGE)
The road I’m traveling is filled of bumps and potholes. There are many obstacles that appear but I never allow them to stop me from moving forward. Flowers are not always blooming on the side of the road and the grass is not always green, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. I like imagining that a few miles up there will be fields of wild flowers that come into view. The darkened sky will eventually turn bright when the sun returns like it always does. The path I’m traveling is long and at times feels endless but I understand I must continue to journey to a land I’m sure exists. There are turns and detours I must take but I do them knowing they will lead me to my destination. I choose to wear my rose colored glasses because they allow me to see the magic in the unknown and the thrill in the mundane. I’m enjoying the ride.
I’m writing about questions for today’s “Q” challenge.
If you’re a writer, chances are you’ve talked to yourself a few times. We are filled with good days and bad days. Some days we feel like we can take on the world and other days we feel like we are wasting time, chasing dreams and writing nonsense. We question what we’re doing and why we are doing it. Below are just a few questions writers ask themselves. Have you ever asked yourself any of these?
1. What am I wasting my time for?
2. Am I good enough?
3. What if no one ever reads my work?
4. What if I become published?
5. Who am I kidding?
6. Where is this story going?
7. Who will I thank if I do get my book published?
8. Where am I going to find the time to write?
9. Is there a purpose to my writing or not?
10. Should I give up?
I would love nothing more than to wake up every morning and spend eight hours writing. I would love if writing was my full time job! I want writing to be my full time job. I dream that writing will one day be my full time job.
Unfortunately I have obligations that prohibit me from writing full time. Most writers dream the same dream but few of us get to live out the dream. It’s hard to find the time to write for hours when you only have a few hours available.
As an employee, I’m obligated to show up for work. As a wife, I’m obligated to pick up my end of the deal (whether that means cleaning, running errands, making dinner or just being available for my husband.) As a mother, I’m obligated to be there at my children’s beckon call. If they get sick, I must tend to them. If they have a softball/baseball game, it’s my duty to watch from the sidelines and cheer them on.
All of my obligations were also choices. I chose to work full time (only after my husband got laid off and we needed the money). I chose to get married and I chose to become a mother. I have experienced great moments (lots with story potential) because of these choices, but still wish that writing full time was an option.
In addition to the obligations I mentioned, I also have an obligation to myself. I’m obligated to put forth an effort to find the success that I’m looking for. I may not be able to write eight hours a day but I will continue to write everyday in hopes that one day writing will be my only job.
Do you write full time? How many hours a day do you set aside to write?
It’s so easy to want to get caught up in today’s writing trends. The vampire stories made a few people rich, Harry Potter and his gang put the wizards back on the map and the dystopian novels made for great reads that turned into epic movies.
All of this doesn’t mean that you should try to come up with your own versions of these stories.
Be the person that tries to think of something that hasn’t been thought of before (I know sometimes this feels impossible). Write your own unique stories. Stay true to yourself.